Gearing Up for a Fight



Today I was blessed enough to have the day off from work.  I will be using the day to get set up for a successful week.  I will be food prepping.  I will also be planning my workouts. 

 

I have joined a new gym.  I was quite hesitant in even going in for the free class...group training really isn't my thing.  I actually kind of love it!  An hour workout where you wear a HR monitor and go into different zones- interval training.  Apparently it's like HIIT classes.  My first class I burned 544 calories....and then the next day my body was destroyed, and sore all over.  I felt fantastic!!

 

Little looksie at OrangeTheory Fitness

 

 

I will be starting off this week right- hitting OrangeTheory twice a week and then doing cardio/walking at home after work (at least 30mins).  Then I'll have my food planned out.  I am revving myself up.  I have to get my rear in gear- a good friend of mine is coming down in March.  She wants to meet up to work out.  I have to have a bit better stamina and be in better shape, as last time we worked out it was disgusting.

 

So I weighed in today.  I am at 221.5# -  goal for February is to be down at least 5-10#.  This, if not more, is definitely doable as long as I stick to my guns....and get my willpower back up to where it was.

 

I look forward to checking back in!

A Rambling Return

My wonderful friend has sold me a laptop of hers, which makes me happy in a myriad of areas.  This helps me with access to my bills, school and updating this lovely little blog.  :D

I am nowhere near the goal I had set for myself come my birthday.  My birthday has come and passed and I am actually a tad heavier than I was. This does not make me happy....however, at the same time I don't have anything or anyone to blame but myself.
I no longer have Alpha or Beta as my trainer(s).  Somehow I always end up with really knowledgeable trainers with smart mouths that don't do well with management.  One gets fired and the other gets kicked out.  Neither are doing personal training anymore and now I'm back at square 1.  I had this conversation with my sister and friend at lunch the other day.  I am not a person who is self motivated....to a certain extent.  I need that person to push me to do things that I don't think I can do or don't want to do.  I have set up to try out a boxing/kickboxing gym but I think I might be better served at an overall gym- one that has other classes along with training. Basically like I had back when I was training at Gold's.  I loved and am still friends with my trainer from there.  Flakey and unreliable he could be but we worked well together- he worked for me.  Life being what it is caused issues and things didn't end the way I had anticipated.

I am now getting a fire back...I'm feeling good about finding a new gym.  Even if I don't get a trainer right away- getting back to a gym that has classes, like spinning (LOVE spinning).  I need something to move me/excite me to get my rear end back in the gym.  I KNOW I can and will do this.

NO MORE EXCUSES!

I have to gain some control.  Right now I feel like I have no set control on anything going on right now.  I am waiting to hear from school to see if I've been accepted into the Veterinary Technician program.  I want this so bad.  It was a bit of a confirmation when I had my review and one of the doctors told me- it's great that I have all this experience, probably too much experience.  I tend to give too much information over the phone of things people can do at home and not making it a priority to bring them in for appointments.  Anywho- that's weighing on my mind and generically my pocket.  I am working 2 jobs and even though the one job is just once a week it's killing my schedule.  I can't quit though....need the $.  At the same time this once a week job makes me feel slightly social.

While trying to get things set up on here I found my old Photobucket account, which had this picture stored:

This was taken before a friend's wedding.  This guy was nice enough to go with me- good friend and I miss him.  I have been having this overwhelming, sadness I guess I'll go with. Missing some friends I haven't seen or talked to in a long time.  I have no social life- maybe that's what happens when you grow up, are an adult.  You have the people you work with and the friends you see or talk to from time to time.  I think that's also part of why I get invested in gyms and trainers- another social outlet.

Alright enough of my rambling/venting.  I'll be sure to plan out a better update for the next one- I was just wanting to get something written to get into the habit again.

The Never-ending Battle

Ok....so....I officially suck.  I am 10 days away from my birthday (the big 3-1 if you were wondering).  Which I am assured by a friend that 31 will be okay- he's making it to 32 alright. :)

Not only have I not lost the weight I wanted to- I think I went up a tad.  My muscles are getting stronger- which leads me to my next conundrum: am I having a hard time losing weight because of my habits/body changing or because I'm strengthening and working with weights?!?!?  

Forgive the tantrum I'm about to have.  I am very aware that I just have to reign in the crazy "Fat Monica".  I keep getting on this damn horse and falling off.  I know what it's like to ride the horse and it is glorious.  Now I just have to remember how to stay on the horse...how I did it in the past.  I know I let my will power dissolve but I know it's still in here somewhere.  I just wish I was done with this battle.  Food should not be something I'm think locked into.  It is something that I should just use as fuel and not be so wrapped up in it.

I have Sunday and Monday off- I will be prepping all food for the week.  When I am prepped and ready I do so much better and my will power is a bit stronger.  Then I will be putting a picture of me from when I was skinnier on my lock screen.  I just so desperately want to get the drive I had back!!

Other than this issue everything else is glorious.  The day practice is fantastic- love everyone, no stress.  Emergency practice is drama central but one day a week I can handle it.  Trainer #2 - Beta - makes me feel old with him being all of 22. :/  He's fun though- entertaining which is what I need when I'm training.  Anything to keep me occupied on something other than my body falling apart. 

Working so much has it's down falls- even though it helps my bills.  Like tonight- I missed a birthday gathering for my friend, which really sucks.  Making things a bit worse I'll be alone for my birthday weekend as my family is going out of town.  Not that I'm huge into birthdays- I'm used to just doing dinners but normally I have people.  Not this year.  I'm really hoping these things are not a precursor into the year I have coming for 31.  That would really be no bueno.

Enough whining and rambling on about nothing....until next update!

My birth month has arrived!

Here's a quickie just to keep my rhythm.  We are in October....October the month of my birth...we are on October 6th- this gives me 24 days to lose 15#.  I need to get my butt in gear- HARD CORE!  

I was sick all this week.  Needless to say all my goals for the week were shot to h-e-double hockey sticks.  I plan on getting back on track this coming week.  I have to get 5 days of cardio in from now on.  It's a must- between that and my diet there's no other way for me to get these pounds off.  I've been pussy-footing around for long enough.  I am not happy with where I am.  Hard core Heather has got to get back on her game.

Setting up to restart the training after a week off and reading my Fighter Diet info this weekend to plan out and prep my food come Monday.  I will be back to being productive.  I feel better overall due to lack of work stress (yay!) so now I have to get productive again in my personal life.  I will get this all going in the right direction!! :)

Realizing the happy ♥

I told you I was bad about updating....

So regarding the last set of goals I set.  I did not hit any of my weekly goals I mentioned...which kind of sucked but when I made the next week's list I hit 2 out of 3.  I, for the most part, did not stray from my planned food for the week.  I'm still working on tweaking it so I set myself up for success and not cave under pressure.  I was on time to work all week- I was actually early most days!  Yay me!!

Now the monthly goals I set: hit 2/3- again.  I did my weekly food prep and I weighed in every week.  It was not always nice on the weigh ins but they are important to track how I'm doing.  The soda was the goal not hit- I'm bad about needing my carbonated pick me up.  It's not even a caffeine thing...it's a sugar thing.

In the spirit of trying to get my butt down these 15# by my birthday, I am trying something new.  I bought this book dealing with the Fighter Diet program.  I'm excited to try to get more of a strict how-to on the food.  I KNOW what I need to do but I need to get in a good rhythm before I can get it back.  For whatever reason I'm having a really hard time STAYING motivated.   Hopefully if I have a rule book of sorts it'll get me back in gear.  I also am going to have a huge prep day tomorrow (Monday)- taking out meat to thaw and cooking veggies.  Prepping lots of meals and snacks.  I have to find a way out of my excuses.

I also have realized that when I get out of control so do other areas- like my food and finances.  I have been using credit way more than I should.  I have made the final purchase of the book and some other needed items but that's my final purchases.  I shouldn't say out of control because right now I'm not out of control- I'm oddly content.  My family life is at a dull roar (my dad is getting remarried in Dec) and I am rather content in my work life- I love the people I work with.

Maybe that's it- I'm so used to having stress and chaos as staples in my life I don't know how to function when I'm not freaking out/stressing out/sleep deprived.  I don't have stress to blame- all I have is me because in reality, I can afford my bills and food if I stopped petty shopping and eating out.

Alrighty this is the goal setting portion of the blog....

October's goals:
1) Be 15# lighter...in 1-derland by the 30th
2) Drink at least 1 liter of water a day
3) Take pictures of sale items and post!

This week's goals:
1) No PMS eating- keep it under control
2) Cardio 4 days (30-45mins at least)
3) No frivolous spending if have add'l funds

 I'm a big Disney nerd and will always have a movie quote that kind of sums up my feelings :)

How do you like them apples?

2 posts in one week...look at me go :D

Of course this means there may be a big lapse in time because it's rare when I get on a continuous role with this thing.  I have actually tried blogging before and failed.  This round seems to be sticking.  I like anonymity to it.  I know I have a few friends that may, or may not read this but it's freeing to be able to write...or type out my thoughts and feelings and not have to worry if the person reading it is going to judge me because they already know me.

I have gotten some ideas from trying to keep up with others blogs- another thing I don't find myself finding time to do.  I work a lot- 6 days a week and I still don't have a computer that works properly once turned on.  So I find some time when I'm at my weekend job...if we don't have emergencies coming in.  Like right now actually.  Anywho- I think I am going to make monthly goals, and also get back to weighing in each week.  As long as I can keep up with this blog it should help me keep myself accountable, get myself back on track.

On that note-

3 monthly goals:

1. Weighing in each week....good, bad or indifferent (which will be difficult because I hate reporting back if I've had a bad week)
2. Weekly food prep (on Mondays- my day off before my 6 days/nights on)
3. One soda a day...ideally caffine free (been very laxed with that lately due to needing the energy)

I'll be daring now: 4 weekly goals:

1. 3 days of cardio (at least 30mins, no more than 45)
2. Track all food (you would think this would be encompassed in the food prep goal- I have a bad habit of munching off script)
3. Finish moving all important items from computer
4. Take pictures of items to sell...if on a role- post to sell

Alrighty I think that is enough goal setting for now.  I will be writing these down in my notebook - along with the food planning and shopping list.  Here goes the turning of a new leaf and getting my act together!

One of my favorite movies ever

Gearing up

One thing- how the frig do I get pictures to actually show up on this thing!?!?!?  I have tried various ways of doing pictures and they won't stay up.  If anyone knows- please share with me!

Now, that that annoyance has been vented about...on to the good stuff. 

I am signing up as I type to be an Advocare distributor.  I signed up basically for the $50 of free Spark and Slam...also the 20% discount you get as a distributor.  I don't really have anyone to sell to but hey- I'm all about the discount.  If anyone's interested in products or whatnot, let a girl know. :)

In doing this I am amping up to get my booty in gear.  I got 15# to drop in about a month.  This is totally doable if I were to do the 24-day challenge that Advocare has.  It starts days 1-10 with a cleanse and then maintenance...not sure I want to spend the $175 to do that.  I can probably just buy the bits and pieces I want and go from there.  Nervous about doing the cleanse again...last time I did that it was almost disturbing how much I was sweating from detoxing.  I know it'll be like that again with the backsliding that has occurred.  As I type this I think I'm talking myself into it. :)

This week was the first week of me having a regular schedule again.  I love it!  It's going to be great once I get in the swing of things.  I know my job pretty well but there are still some things that are being learned as they come up.  The only thing is the lovely monthly visitor has gotten my food all jacked up.  I can never be too hard core during that week.  My body literally rejects the good food.  Next week though- it's on!

I'm going to be food prepping Monday (that's my only day off).  This will include food shopping for the next 2 weeks.  I'm going to try to budget for 2 weeks worth of food in my paychecks.  No excuses!  I can't have excuses to do this.  I didn't make excuses the first round and I was almost down 100#.  I hate the struggle- I know it is part of the journey.  To an extent anyway. ;)

I am excited for all of this- ready to get into a good routine.  I need to get some sanity back in my life.

If you keep up with me long enough you will learn I love Old English Sheepdogs.  I have one named Riley (who is my first fur baby).  I had a sheepie growing up- Prince.  They are as different as night and day.  Anywho- this will be coming this weekend hopefully. :D
One final attempt at a picture:

"the paw - the head - the wiggle butt"