I did go down a pound and a half in one week just to go up 4 the next....and another half pound following that. Needless to say I am quite nervous to weigh in on Monday. I am however going to be more diligent in the changes that I say I'm going to do.
I'm very tired of being a person who says and doesn't follow through. Now, no one knows about the lack of follow through......but I do! I do not want to continue this way. I'm done back sliding. I have ordered my vitamins, one being a Green Coffee supplement. I know it's an aide that I don't necessarily need but I need it more for my morale then anything else. I need to see the numbers on the scale go down. I may have gone up in my weight but it's not falling off like it did before- I am not the same person I was before.
I've already lost the weight- 2nd time around is going to be a lot harder. Not to mention I am older. I will not let this be an excuse, nor will I let my knee slow me down (any more). I also ordered a joint supplement- that should, once loaded, will help with the swelling and pain.
Food is going to be my focus for Fri, Sat and Sun. Sunday I will be starting fresh in the exercise dept. I walked with a good friend of mine that I haven't seen in about 4 months last night. We walked, total = ~3 miles/a 5k. We walked about a mile and a half to the restaurant and then walked that back to her house. I was excited- got in 11,000 steps that day and walked 5 miles total for the day.
I love having the FitBit. It definitely encourages me in my step taking. I kind of feel bad on the days that I just veg out and relax- very small amount of steps. This will be another goal in the tweaking of exercise- getting in at least a mile a day of walking. Even if it's just around my neighborhood. I have to make it a priority like I once did. I know it will exhaust me with everything else I have going on but I will be happier.
Having control over something is very much needed right now. My job has been quite stressful- I need to get out of the small office atmosphere. I need actual bosses who are just that. Someone who is a boss and does just that. NOT someone who is a boss on top of their other job. I don't like having someone who cannot separate being a coworker from being a boss. It gets too messy!!! I've only had one boss that was really good at that. I miss having her as my boss....everyday.
Needless to say, the weight and work are making my anxiety go into overload. The hope is that come next update I will have good news. Stress should hopefully be down (new job even? maybe? hopefully?) and so should the anxiety.....and the weight. ;)
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